Holding out like this is really unfair to all of you. Especially to Grant and to Felix. Me being coward is just that, being a coward. I know you said I wasn't responsible for any pain or awkwardness but it's been so hard to shake that feeling away. I think that's what got me so scared in my boots.
You're not dragging us down, Zuke. I don't want you to interpret what I'm saying like that. I just want to make sure we're all on the same page, and Grant needs to have all the relevant information for that.
Also, just because how tough things are on you doesn't change what needs to be done, that doesn't mean it doesn't matter. It matters a lot to me, at least. You're a great guy, Zuke. You deserve to have things easy. What we get and what we deserve don't match up most of the time, but...well, if I had to do something hard and painful, I know you wouldn't brush that off.
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No, really, I see you point.
Holding out like this is really unfair to all of you. Especially to Grant and to Felix. Me being coward is just that, being a coward. I know you said I wasn't responsible for any pain or awkwardness but it's been so hard to shake that feeling away. I think that's what got me so scared in my boots.
But...yeah, I have to tell Grant.
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It doesn't matter how tough it is on me, in the end of the day.
I just can't drag you all down anymore.
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Also, just because how tough things are on you doesn't change what needs to be done, that doesn't mean it doesn't matter. It matters a lot to me, at least. You're a great guy, Zuke. You deserve to have things easy. What we get and what we deserve don't match up most of the time, but...well, if I had to do something hard and painful, I know you wouldn't brush that off.
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Okay. I need to...think about the best way to bring it to him. Because I want this to go okay, one way or another.
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