Yeah, I guess you're right. It just seemed like it was another headache to everybody when you all didn't deserve it. But you're right, it's not lying more or less to anyone but myself. But it doesn't mean I'm not leaving you guys hanging.
It's just none of it feels like I'm being good to you guys. Whether I spill or not.
You're no headache, Zuke. You're someone who means a lot to us. And you having such deep feelings for us could never be anything but a compliment, regardless of any awkward timing involved. So don't ever think otherwise.
I know if our positions were reversed, you'd be horrified at the idea of me feeling guilty for having feelings for you, or regretting being honest with you about them - maybe even feeling like I shouldn't have those feelings at all. Right? So treat yourself the way you'd treat me. Sweetly. Like I'd given you a gift, and just because the timing was bad and you aren't exactly ready or in the mood to open it yet doesn't mean you resent the gesture, or that it has no meaning to you.
You keep being too vague with your question. What 'this' are we talking about? Sylvain's disappearance, or your feelings? I guess context clues might hint at the latter.
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Yeah, I guess you're right. It just seemed like it was another headache to everybody when you all didn't deserve it. But you're right, it's not lying more or less to anyone but myself. But it doesn't mean I'm not leaving you guys hanging.
It's just none of it feels like I'm being good to you guys. Whether I spill or not.
Like, does the group know about all of this?
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I know if our positions were reversed, you'd be horrified at the idea of me feeling guilty for having feelings for you, or regretting being honest with you about them - maybe even feeling like I shouldn't have those feelings at all. Right? So treat yourself the way you'd treat me. Sweetly. Like I'd given you a gift, and just because the timing was bad and you aren't exactly ready or in the mood to open it yet doesn't mean you resent the gesture, or that it has no meaning to you.
You keep being too vague with your question. What 'this' are we talking about? Sylvain's disappearance, or your feelings? I guess context clues might hint at the latter.